Two weeks ago, I started to feel bad.
The stress of the new school year had subsided. A wave of uncontrollable fatigue swept over me.
I was at the end of my rope.
I had to stop, discuss it with my lover.
I was exhausted.
The syndrome of “I want everything to be always perfect” had finished me … or almost.
I just had too much on my shoulders. Office work, housekeeping, kids, new school routines, and so on. I just felt like I was on the precipice.
Well, it took me 3 days to get over it.
It is miraculous.
All I needed at this time was to share my anxieties, my fatigue and to be understood and supported.
It was THE solution for me at this time. And I was not ashamed to talk about it; it’s OK not to be OK. It’s OK to talk about it and to know that it’s the same in other homes … that we are not alone.
Since this episode, I have my foot on the brakes and it makes me feel good. I practice letting go and above all, I do not put too much on the shoulders. Finally, I keep talking, it’s liberating and I don’t care about judgments!
But you, how are you?